Resolved

I have been thinking about New Year's Resolutions, which led me to thinking about what resolved means.  So, I looked it up,  The definition was:

firm in purpose or intent; determined.

 

When I think about that I think about steely eyed determination...think Clint Eastwood's Dirty Harry with a measure of Sean Connery in any of his roles.  I also think that when I make resolutions they tend to be more wishes about something rather than being resolved.  This year I am resolved.  The steely eyed, don't mess with me, come hell or high water resolved.

 

I have had this idea in my head of who I want to be for a very long time.  This year I am resolved to do something every day to move towards that idea.  I may never get there or maybe I won't even get close, but I am resolved to try.

 

I think I am already moving towards that.  I have been cleaning the garage and getting rid of the things that I don't want or need. I am also going to be doing my best to get rid of the attitudes and behaviors that I don't want or need.  I have already found that my relationships are easier and I am actually having more fun being around friends and family.  It feels more relaxed actually, which is kind of shocking. Dating has taken on a different tenor too. Perhaps a different perspective will yield a different result.

 

Each day I will wake up committed to that future person and looking forward to the day when she and I are the same person...because I am resolved.